It’s been a year since I graduated from college and almost a year being employed. I remember when I was in college, I badly wanted to graduate and find work to enjoy life but as of this moment, all I want is to be back in college where I can joy my life as a student.
During college, the only thing that worried me was how can I pass every subject smoothly, how can I graduate on time, needing 8 hours of sleep, and to lessen the intake of caffeine. I sometimes worry about the financial situation but I have someone to rely on for that matter.
As of this moment, I’m literally living independently. When I said independently, I’m no longer getting an allowance from my mom, I’m the one who pays for my accommodation and bills. Yup, you read it clearly, bills are one of the things that worries me.
During college, even though I slept late because of doing some school work, waking up not so early is the one thing I missed when I was studying. It really doesn’t cost going to school because it's just an 8-10 minutes walk.
As I entered real life, from not so early waking up to very early to prepare breakfast and packed lunch for work, sometimes If I missed preparing breakfast and doing my lunch because I want to extend my sleep for minutes and hours. From walking to riding and chasing jeepney.
Some changes I’ve mentioned are some instances of how my life changes after college. But the real deal is that I felt lost for the first 6 months. From the day I got a job until the first month, I’m thrilled because this is what I dreamed when I was studying; graduate and get a job. The day has come that I felt like not going to work because I feel so unmotivated and dejected. I started to ask myself if this is the right path for me? Every night, I’m crying and thinking what’s the right path for me. For the six (6) months I endured everything, continuously going to work unmotivated. Despite being unmotivated, I work hard every day and do my job well because if I resign without enough savings and the next plan I will be broke.
Seeing my batchmates in college posting what they’ve already achieved in the short span they’re working, I envy them doing fine but at the same time, I admire how they handled and achieved it. For the first time, I got scared about how my future will be, the pressure is so high. Before I thought when I finished my study and got the job in the company, I could save enough as I can, but for me, it became a myth and learned a new and mature perspective in life.
From that, I learned that it’s not about whether you finish your study or not. There are so many successful people that didn’t have the chance to finish their study because of some reason but they were very successful in their life today. Having a degree is a bonus but not a must, it’s about how you will strategize your life. The world has many opportunities to give and it’s in our hands to grab and seize every opportunity we have. The choice is ours and we’re the ones controlling our life. It’s natural to feel lost because we're not familiar with how the life after college will be, we’re just starting to live from it and make some adjustments.
For a year of living in adulthood, I learned to accept the fact that life from college is a long way different in my life today. My perspective in life has changed, my lifestyle becomes sagacious and my motivation always strives to learn some skills that will satisfy me and not worry about the future. I learned to live in the simplest way of living, without craving for the acceptance of the other people.
Every day seems hard but think of the results behind the struggles. Success can’t be achieved without struggle. No one gets successful for a night, it takes time and hard work for someone to become successful.
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